Dragons, sword fighting and hide-and-seek {Portraits}

Every once in awhile you need to be reminded what's important in life. I get busy, and my daily list of to-do's starts taking over. I quickly forget to take a minute to enjoy what's "right now" in my family, and actually live...really live.

I had the pleasure of spending one of our beautiful late September, warm mornings with an adventurous 3 year old and his mother. I met Sarah months ago and was excited to photograph her and Ian as they enter a new chapter in their lives together.

We decided on a favorite spot of the two of them, one that Ian found comforting, and might not mind so much the "intruder" on their morning play. We started with a walk, he showed me his bug he'd been holding onto for the car ride and then we went exploring.....

What I had in mind was a regular family session, beautiful photos of mom and son, in the gorgeous woods of Aspen Hall. What I got was a magical world of hide-and-seek, Dragon hunting, sword fighting and pretend camp fires and the best smores I've ever had. Following this mom around on {what I found to be} a "normal" morning for them was one of the best ways I could imagine spending that morning. The imagination on this doe eyed three year old was incredible, as him and his mother ran through the woods flying to our next destination. I quickly snapped when I could and managed a few eye contact photos with little Ian.

I wasn't merely an observer either. I got to seek for the two hiding, and search for creatures hiding in the woods. We turned mom into a frog and and found refuge in a cabin.

While I can say technically, tromping through the woods, dark woods I might add, did not manage to produce the crisp, perfectly-in-focus photos I normally like, what I did get surprised me as well. The story, is sometimes more important than the actually quality, and the memories that this mom will always carry with her of a normal morning with her son.

Thank you Sarah and Ian for showing me sometimes the to-do list can wait, and while I strive for perfection, it's more about the moment every time. I hope these photos only do our adventure justice....I will never look at Aspen Hall as anything less than a magical place, with dragons and the best smores I've still ever had.

Sarah and Ian; a dragon hunt. from Studio 3 bend on Vimeo.

Holiday fever already?? {templates}

So the kids are back in school, we've all {trying} adjusted to our new "schedules" and now it's time to start thinking about the family photo tradition! I know in our house this is practically the only time I can get all three of together for a once-a-year new photo. Yes, even the photographers kids hate having photos taken.

So this year, lets make it fun. Start thinking early, planning ahead and hopefully the daunting task will be turned into a fun family day. If you book your sessions early this year, before November 1st, you can take part in one of my Holiday "teenie" sessions.

What does this mean?
2o minutes sessions, anyone can do that....even Dad.

What do I get?
20 minutes with me! plus 25 5x7 folded holiday cards, envelopes included.

Can I buy extra cards? I have a big family!
Of course! Additional packs of (25) are $70. I also carry different sizes. I'll work with you, maybe you want postcards for the rest of the Holiday card list?

What do the cards look like?
Good question! All designs are fully customizable.

Okay, so know that you've seen the designs, what are you waiting for? In studio and location shoots available, limited sessions taken. Pick up the phone already......

Speedlight Flash techniques {workshop}

Studio 3 presents
Speedlight Flash Techniques by Byron Roe Photography

Thursday, September 23rd
6:00 pm to 8:00 pm
Networking and refreshments 8:00 pm – 9:00 pm
at Bend’s NEW Photography Studio Co-op, Studio 3

Studio 3 | create • inspire • for hire
558 9th Street, Suite 5, at 9th and Wilson
between Country Catering and Pakit Liquidators
www.studio3bend.com

Spice up your photography with easy speedlight flash techniques.

Separate your work from other photographers and get more creative with your photography by using small "speedlight" flashes. Using flash doesn't need to be complicated or scary but can be a great way to broaden the "tools" you'll need to get consistently great shots regardless of the available light. This workshop will focus on basic speedlight flash technique using Nikon equipment but the concepts will transfer over to anyone looking to use these small, "off camera" flashes with an SLR camera, or even natural light photographers who simply want to see what can be accomplished with supplemental lighting. We'll cover multiple ways of positioning one or more flashes to light people using diffusers and reflectors, how to light people naturally with flash to work in conjunction with ambient light, and of course setting your camera and flash to make it all seamlessly work! Focus will also be given to techniques and tips covered come from a recent 2- day workshop with speedlight master, Joe McNally.

This workshop is geared toward the basic to intermediate photographer.

Byron Roe Photography We are a husband and wife team specializing in on location wedding photography based in Central Oregon.
www.studio-br.com

Registration is $59 and includes the 2-hour workshop and refreshments/networking time afterward. For more information, contact { Studio 3 } studio3bend@gmail.com, visit our website www.studio3bend.com, or call Kimberly at (541)410-6368.

To register, simply visit our website, or send a check or money order payable to Studio 3 Bend for $59 to Studio 3, 558 SE 9th St. Suite #5, Bend, OR 97702, along with the registrant’s name, email and phone number.

This workshop is sponsored by Incredible Events and Flash, Ink!

Introducing Studio 3 {contest}

I have had one busy summer. New business ventures. Yes...I'm opening a new studio with two of my favorite photographers, Kimberly Teichrow and Jeff Kennedy. Needless to say we are working ourselves to near death, and leaving no time for a fun filled summer, which apparently slipped by practically unnoticed.

Along with shooting and sharing the studio space, we are anxiously awaiting our first workshop, on Speed Light Techniques, taught by the lovely husband/ wife team, Bryon and Wendy Roe, of Byron Roe Photography.

We're having such a great time, and want all of our great clients and fellow photographers to have as much fun as we do. For this first workshop we are offering a {FREE} ticket, with a fun contest in mind. Come see our new Studio blog and find out how to get your {FREE} pass.

Shooting for Joy {personal}

I've been wanting to get out and shoot for fun, with a theme and props and a perfect style, that really speaks to me. I have been finding several photographers on Facebook, ones I enjoy, and can feel the emotion behind their work. My favorite at the moment is an amazing woman named Deb Schwedhelm.

Her work is simply beautiful and so completely emotional. So, my project for the month....

I found a model here in town, the beautiful TJ Reese. She was willing and totally up for the challenge. We are scouting the best "off the beaten path" location. Shopping around for the perfect add in props and vintage clothes to complete the look and what we will come up with will be incredible...I'm sure of it.

This is the type of photography I love. I want to do more of it. I think it's why I love Boudior so much, the romance, the beauty the energy. I hope in the next few months I can revamp my style just enough, so that these types of photographs are the ones I'm known for. That people will come to me not only for a great portrait, but a piece of art. I think that's when my heart is the happiest, when I am creating a beautiful piece of art for a client.

I'm so anxious to show you the final product. But for now, to send you off in style, a little snap shot of Taylor I did the other day. I think I might use this one for my new business cards.

Smith Rock and velvet

A perfect evening at Smith Rock. Great light, a truck to tow the velvet couch, a beautiful family and props to add to the vintage feel I was after.

I met Brenda a few weeks back at one of my new favorite stores in town. Over a mimosa before picking up the girls from school one afternoon, Brenda told me how her older daughter would be flying in town soon and would love to have a family photo taken. It had been years since the three of them were in the same place long enough to capture anything for mom, and with Mothers day nearly approaching I had an idea.

When I heard her daughters were grown, and would likely do anything asked, I decided this would be the perfect family to try out my plan. I have a gorgeous couch, sea-foam green velvet Victorian couch that was actually purchased for photos, and until last weekend had yet to be used except for our every day TV watching, this couch actually does live in my living room.

We borrowed a truck, and Brenda and I moved this 7 foot beast by ourselves out to Smith rock, along with vintage suitcases, a bird cage, a small plant, and anything else I found in my house that might fit the images I had floating around in my head.

Her daughters were all I expected, beautiful and sweet. They moved just how I asked them, didn't think my requests of "Now, hold this potted plant like a cup of Chinese tea, delicately...." or " dip her like you mean it, this is supposed to me romantic." were odd, at least that I know of. The younger daughter is getting married and we were lucky enough to have one male on the premises, who was willing to even try the new famous "Blue Steel" pose.

I left feeling great about the images I had. I was excited to get home and try out some new actions I had recently purchased from the amazing Annie Manning of "Paint the Moon" photography. And even more so, I was happy for this mom to have some wonderful memories of her beautiful daughters that were both off to new adventures in life, one even on her way to Thailand.

I've spent endless hours at the computer, smiling all the way, surprising myself at the end results. I have always tried to incorporate my love of all things old, vintage flare with my photography and always fall short, going back to the old stand by. What I now feel I am able to give my clients is a piece of art. Aside from the memories of the shoot, they are usually filled with nervous laughter and strange ideas.

I had a wonderful time meeting this gorgeous family, and hope that at some other point in their lives we'll meet again. Maybe a wedding in the future...possibly??

Thank you for humoring me with the trip to the Rock, while all the hikers stared at the velvet couch placed perfectly in the field. Thanks to Amanda for putting up with the freezing conditions of Bend, we all know at times like that you wish you were back on the beaches of Hawaii, and thanks to Brittany for being my new favorite model. This girl knows how to work it! My daughter will forever be jealous of the rainbow hair.

It was my pleasure and at very least I hope you enjoy your images. I am in love with them.

A before and After of the new technique

First signs of spring....

Spring around Central Oregon tends to be cold, wet and while all of us are ready for some sun, it's just not quite time. This year is no different, although a few signs are peaking through the hints of snow, and the frosty mornings.

I've seen people all year doing a 365 days of photos....Today starts my adventure.

My neighbor is an avid gardener. With her pristine yard, her perfectly trimmed lawn and beautiful bushes scattered all across her cute little farm house. To have such a yard as this in Bend, is a challenge, to put it lightly. You must be a green thumb extraordinaire, and almost have magical powers, or know someone in the garden fairy world to help you out. I am not such a person, but luckily I get to reap the benefits of my neighbors yard, when her budding trees start falling across the fence into my side yard.

This is the view from my window, that for now makes me smile to think that the sun is just around the corner, and the days of basking in the warm weather for only a few months is nearly here.

Day #1

First signs of spring......

Textures and Actions...Oh my! {processing}

I have not played too much with Photoshop actions and/or textures. I love the look, but find I never use them when processing my own photos. Today however, I had some time, and a new set of photos I snapped at a wedding this weekend that I knew without a doubt needed the touch an action set from the AMAZING-ly talented Annie Manning with Paint the Moon Photography.

Not only were they easy to use, they gave my photos the look I always see and love, but never attempt myself. For fear of not getting it, "just so"

I'm hooked, I'm in love, and I want MORE! I think I will have to start implementing this fun technique in my sessions, and I cannot wait to play some more. I have the PERFECT session coming up this weekend....I'm not sure I can contain my excitement after this.....

This boy stole my heart with one bat of the eyes. Is he NOT the cutest thing you've seen sporting a velvet jacket and fedora.



I love when a wedding client is a friend. The girls came with me, and Kaci even used my second camera to take a few of her own photos. I'll post a few of the budding photographers favorites later. Apparently she LEFT her (my) camera at the venue...luckily I have great friends who quickly scooped it up and have it safely awaiting our arrival.


And finally....alittle lemon and honey to sweeten the tea. Even the action names are cute!

April 20, 2010 {Michigan}

Traveling alone is much easier then packing up the whole house, organizing three peoples clothes and listening to the constant chatter of two excited girls.


I took off this morning on my Michigan adventure; a great flight time, I didn't have to get up early and stress over the possibility of sleeping through the dreaded alarm. I took my time getting ready, had a few cups of coffee and a nice filling breakfast before making my way to PDX.

My lucky steak is following me around as I have had now on BOTH flights an empty seat next to me, where my ridiculously long legs can stretch out and I can read with out the guy next to me breathing down my neck. The second flight proved to be the better of the two when I was seated next to the hot guy on the plane who actually made conversation and even politely looked through my copy of True North (which I am on on the cover of for April/May) while he introduced himself to the local celebrity....I of course blushed and an now on the computer writing about it instead on engaging him in more conversation. (And you wander why I'm still single)

The sun has gone down and the natives are restless. I'm ready to land, but this day of travel has not been as tiring as some. I'm looking forward to the week ahead of me and the adventure that lies on the other side of the baggage claim. I'm not sure what to expect and do I even want any expectations? I think I will let this one take me where it may and enjoy the ride. While I don't think I'm going to rush out and pack the moving van for Detroit, I do think the adventure will be one for the memory books.

Signing off from the sky, somewhere about who knows where.....

If you're patient....you just might find her. {personal}

There are some people in your life that you just think will always be there. No matter what....

My mom did child care in our home the whole time I was growing up. When I was 5 she started babysitting a girl just my age, with the most fiery red hair I have ever seen. Her name was Karen B. I cant remember anything back then other than we were best friends. We had countless sleepovers, and I told her everything. We went to the same school until 5th grade when we moved, I think at that point the "babysitting" wasn't happening anymore, and she was just at our house anyways.

Fast forward all the way through school, we always stayed in contact. I missed her for a few years during those times apart in grade school, but we quickly picked up right where we left off.

At one point during High School, when I decided to go Rogue and "experience" HS on my own, with a new set of friends, and breaking all the rules, we had our time apart, but just like grade school, we quickly picked up right where we left off.

I visited Karen in college and we still stayed friends. We even had our first babies just one month apart. We tried as much as we could to get our kids together as babies and document their little play dates. She was even one of the two bridesmaids at my wedding (yes, I was married....for a bit)

Karen and I even kept in touch when I packed my bags and lived in North Carolina for 6 years during that marriage. I visiting her cute little apartments when I'd come home to visit, and we'd always send photos of the growing kids.

My last visit with Karen is hard to remember. It seems to be that I can remember vivid details of so much of my life, but for a few brief years. Fortunately these are the same years when life was real tough, and quite possibly I don't NEED to remember it much.

When I finally moved back to Oregon in 2002, one of the first phone calls was to Karen. I didn't' get her, but her Ex, who promised me he's give her the message and tell her I was looking to get reconnected.

Her return call never came......

At this point you have to wander if you should start to take things personally, but after so many years you want to think it's only a lack of communication, right??

I tried one more time to reach her, Pats number being the only one I had, made things difficult. My next try, he had moved and I had hit a brick wall in my search for my friend.

On a daily basis for awhile, Karen was on my mind. I though of her fondly and hoped she was well. I wished I could see those cute red head kids grow up, and have my kids know her as well.

In this day and age with computers and facebook, I figured this would be an easy task. I find people all the time, and the one's you want to stay hidden, they pop up way too often!

To not bore you with all the details, I searched for years. Every so often just checking to see if she finally got a facebook, or had added any info on a reunion site, but nothing. It's like she literally disappeared.

I never gave up, in fact I do believe this is the one and only time in my life I've been patient. I want instant gratification, like most people this day and age.

This past Monday I tried again. no facebook....again, but hmmmmm.....lets try her little brother. BINGO! I found him....now to get a response out of him. Will he remember me?? I had to try.

After a few messages back and forth, I finally had Karens number in my hands. Like a silly nervous teenager, I quickly dialed the number before I lost my nerve. DOhhhhhh! Answering machine....Ok, leave a cute little message. Done.


About an hour later, my phone rings. That silly smile is smeared across my face as I answer it, in hopes that maybe I found her.

Yesterday was a good day. After 8 years, and many life changes. Divorce, a few more children and two career changes, we picked up right where we left off. Like no time has passed, we laughed until my jaw literally hurt. We had so much to talk about we probably could have talked for 3 more hours, but we'll save those talks for in person.

I looked though a few old photos last night and I'm sure she'll kill me for posting a few of these, but they are too great NOT to share. I wish I could find the one's from our 5 year old days, now that would be funny.

Karen, I've missed you. You know everything. I don't need to explain anything, cause you where there for the years that made me...me. You know the reasons why when I tell you I'm afraid to start new relationships, or why I mess up as a parent. We don't have to explain anything to each other, and even when she doesn't' agree with me, she'll love me anyways.

I can't wait to see her. There will be so much more to talk about then, and document. I'm not sure when it will happen, but I do know soon. I can't wait another 8 years.

This was Karen in middle school...I know this because of the bangs....I think she (we) went through an entire bottle a week.

Karen and Jacob from my wedding. (and no, I did NOT take this picture)

One of our last visits with each other. At lest she got one red head baby!

And just because they are too cute not to post....Little Taylor and Mia.

Guest Blogger.....Lori {products}

My hopes is that every so often I can take advantage of all of my wonderful knowledgeable friends and let them tell you , in their own words, what I hear from them. Our first guest blogger is Lori, she's a wiz at the organic beauty products. I'm always calling Lori when I'm in the market for new makeup or am having any kind of skin problems, and let me tell you....she always knows the answer.

What's Going On? Baby products should be safe, not Toxic!*

So you've heard all this hype about chemicals in your bath and beauty products, it's caught your attention... but seriously, could it really be that bad? Yes my friends, it is...

What am I talking about here? People, this is serious! Did you know that only 11 percent of the ingredients in personal care products are tested for safety? How many products do you use in a day, a week, a year? How about your children? Toxic chemicals are hiding in your products, and accumulating in your body with each and every use! Sometimes these chemicals are not disclosed on product labels because they're contaminants, not ingredients, and therefore are exempt from labeling laws!
We're talking about carcinogens (proven cancer causing chemicals) in our babies shampoo, lead in our lipstick (they've taken it out of paint and put it in lipstick!? Hello??), and neurotoxins (chemicals that are toxic to the brain) in our fragrances... chemicals linked to cancer, birth defects and other health problems... and that's just scraping the surface!* (Read more about "Why This Matters" at http://www.cosmeticsdatabase.com/research/whythismatters.php

This is not my opinion. The Campaign for Safe Cosmetics "is a coalition effort launched in 2004 to protect the health of consumers and workers by securing the corporate, regulatory and legislative reforms necessary to eliminate dangerous chemicals from cosmetics and personal care products".* (Check out www.safecosmetics.org

So, you're concerned, you want to rid yourself of these products, but you don't know where to start? Well, let me tell you that it takes a lot of time and effort to educate yourself on these issues. I have researched claims, products, companies, ingredients, and so on. I have spent hours upon hours deciding what absolutely needs to be avoided, what is safe, and what is hyped up. I have been able to find trustworthy companies with exceptional products to fit every budget. I would love to share what I know with you!

What to keep, what not to keep...

Look at the ingredients, my number one red flag is a list of things I cant pronounce. Take label warnings seriously, they indicate hazardous chemicals.
The top ingredients to avoid are mercury, lead, Formaldehyde (will appear as Formalin, quaternium, & Urea (imidazolidinyl and Diazolidinyl)), synthetic fragrances also listed as BHT, isoeugenol, cinnamal, companies also hide dangerous chemicals behind the simple word "fragrance"), Hydroquinone (skin lightener), nano particles (Nano...), phthalates (also listed as DBP, DEP, DEHP BzBP, DMP), triclosan & triclocarban, sodium lauryl or laureth sulfate, Polyethylene Glycol (PEG's & -eths (e.g. names with PEG and eth in them, e.g. "laureth", "PEG-20")), triethanolamine, methylchloroisothiazolinone or methylisothiazolinone, Parabens http://www.organicconsumers.org/bodycare/breastcancer090604.cfm (Methyl and Propyl and Butyl and Ethyl, etc), 1,4-dioxane, selenium sulfide, coal tar and coal tar colors (Includes FD&C and D & C colors, especially blue 1 and green 3.), toluene, any word containing "phenyl...", resorcinol, hydroquinone, BHA, thimerosal, aluminum powder/Starch/ Octenylsuccinate, petroleum byproducts...*

So, that's not too hard to remember, right? Just avoid the above ingredients. Write them down or print them out. Look through all of your products, check the ingredient lists. When you go shopping bring your list and read every label... I know, crazy, right?! Well, that's just what I did.

When I started turning over products and reading labels, I ended up with an empty makeup bag, a bare bathroom, and a garbage bag full of products. Then I thought, shoot I have nothing left, and not enough money to buy more stuff. Well, most of the stores I buy from guarantee their products, so seeing as how I was not satisfied, I returned what I could. With a little help from "The Campaign for Safe Cosmetics", I included a letter to each of the companies, stating my dissatisfaction with their products. I also asked them to commit to manufacturing safer cosmetics. Let me just say that Victoria's Secret is the one of the number one companies and brands of concern on the Cosmetics Safety Database. They were my first stop.
(Want to check your favorite products or brands? Check out www.cosmeticsdatabase.com

Just tell me what to buy...

Seriously, who has time to read labels? I really don't either! However, when something grabs my attention like this does, I simply cannot ignore it! I HAVE to find out more information, more FACTS! Then, I either dismiss it (if it's just a bunch of hype), or address it. I just have this "thing"... I get passionate about something and it utterly consumes me! But hey, now all of you can benefit from my hours of research! You just want to grab it and go, right?! I've got oodles of recommendations for you, but let's just start with a few reputable companies...

100% Pure www.100percentpure.co m
Aubrey Organics
Almay Pure Blends (Pure Blends ONLY)
Avalon Organics
Alba
Afterglow Cosmetics www.afterglowcosmetics.com
BareMinerals www.bareescentuals.com
Beauty Without Cruelty
Burts Bees
California Baby
Desert Essence
Dr. Bronner's
Dr. Weil
Earth's Best
Giovanni
Jane Iredale www.janeiredale.com
Jason Natural Cosmetics
Juice Beauty
Kiss My Face
Lily of the Desert
Miessense http://www.miorganicproducts.com
Mill Creek
MyChelle http://www.mychelle.com/
Nature's Baby Organics
Origins www.origins.com
Physicians Formula Organic Wear (Organic Wear ONLY)
Rainbow
Shea Terra Organics www.sheaterraorganics.com
Shikai
Spry
Toms of Maine
Weleda

So, now you're enlightened...

I know, I know, you're overwhelmed, right?! I was too at first, and the quote "ignorance is bliss"... no, no, don't think like that! You want to be informed, you want safe products, you and your precious family deserve the best! Don't waste your money on cheaply made products, full of toxic cancer causing chemicals! Hey, I'm going to make it easy for you to clean out your closet, er makeup bag! Your skin will feel better, look better, and you will BE healthier once you rid yourself of these toxins! Now go on, toss it out!

I will be working on an organized list of my favorite products and brands with prices for every budget. That way, when you need something, you can check this out and know what to buy! Look for it in the next newsletter!

~Lori

*This information is provided by the following:

The Campaign for Safe Cosmetics www.safecosmetics.org <http://www.safecosmetics.org>
Skin Deep's Cosmetics Safety Database www.cosmeticsdatabase.com <http://www.cosmeticsdatabase.com>
The Breast Cancer Fund www.breastcancerfund.org <http://www.breastcancerfund.org>
Think Before You Pink (A project of Breast Cancer Action) http://thinkbeforeyoupink.org/
Environmental Working Group www.ewg.org <http://www.ewg.org>
Organic Consumers Association http://www.organicconsumers.org/

I'm on a roll, so let's just go with it! {contests}

I was announced second place in a photo contest yesterday for a photo I took of my favorite Bend, OR teacher. It was for a seniors, 50+ beautiful faces of Central Oregon. (Yeah me!)

While I'm on a roll, I thought I would try my luck at a national level for a cover contest from my favorite photography magazine, Professional Photographers. While voting isn't what determines the winner, I'd love to get all of you to vote. Please follow the link, and if you don't choose mine, find your favs! Vote for me!

Thanks for the love and support and I will keep you all posted! Someday you'll all be able to say.... "I knew her when!"

Everyone can use a little makeover {personal}

A few months back Taylor was home from school sick. It was another rainy, wet and cold day, that I spent strapped to my computer, and almost obsessively checking and re-checking my Facebook -page.

I am a fan of one of the local parenting magazines, and happened to notice an online makeover contest they were offering. Taylor walked by as I voiced the fact that I need a makeover and would love to win that. I also want to be on the show "What NOT to wear" and we jokingly say we need to enter my Mom as well.

Before....not so bad.

Everyone woman in her "rut" of normal life could use a good pick-me-up at one time or another, but I never have had much luck and winning is usually not something I do very often. Taylor asked me to forward the notice to her...I had a slight inkling she was up to something and I thought it was cute for her efforts. Never once did I think I really would win. I actually had forgotten very quickly about the whole thing.

Here is a copy of the letter written by my girl. Unedited in all it's glory, she was sweet to be sure to mention that I DON"T feel pretty and could totally use on of these....

My name is Taylor Alderin, I am entering this contest for my mom because my mom means so much to me and she spends so much time taking care of me and my little sister and making sure we are happy or that we are in good schools getting good grades. I think you should pick my mom for this contest because she is a great person and she never feels like she is beautiful on the outside my mom does feel pretty on the inside but her raising 2 kids on her own has been getting very hard for our family and i feel like if you were to choose her to get the makeover then maybe she would be more confident in raising me and my sister she never has time for herself.

another great reason is that she works very hard but she never has the money to buy new clothes for her or new makeup so she is always unhappy with how she looks but if she were to get this she would look in the mirror and say"wow today i look beautiful" and that would make me smile every time she says it.

the last reason you should pick my mom is because its so hard for me and my sister to every morning have to tell my mom over and over again that she looks great and she never believes us so i think if you guys would give her this chance to be happy for along time then our family might run a little smoother.

A few weeks later, I was in appointments, being asked to try on outfits that were slightly "out of my comfort zone" and meeting some amazing women who just wanted to spoil us. Leah, the other winner and I became instant friends. We cried together, laughed, and drank mimosa's in the hotel bathroom together.

There are so many wonderful sponsors, who without, the experience would not have been manageable. One of the many reasons I love Bend, all the support in our community.

I spend so much time with work and the kids, taking care of other people, I forget what it's like to be pampered. I had a great time, and am so blessed to have been able to participate. Day one of the makeover was hard. I loved the manicure, and I had great visions of video taping the trying on of clothes like you see in all the movies...trying on hats, and crazy outfits and in the end making a funny, entertaining movie. This isn't exactly how that day went down.

I have to remind you...this was AWESOME! As I tell the next part, remember that....I had SO much fun. I was nervous, and excited. Kaci and I met Leah and our stylist Astacia down at one of the consignment shops in town, a funky store in the Old Mill. There had been outfits in my size pulled out for me to try on, with accessories to accompany the pretty new clothes. A huge pile of clothes lines the dressing room walls, and for a control freak like myself, I was pleasantly surprised at the selection. I know my body, I know what looks good on me and I know how hard it is to find pants long enough for my 5'10" frame.

I watch all those makeover shows on TV and always roll my eyes as they all cry about their clothes or the cutting of the hair. It's just clothes people...hair grows back. What I didn't expect is that in actuality when you loose all control over such simple things, there is bound to be some kind of emotion. The same is true for me. I didn't' expect to get so emotional, and I think I hid it well, but I am not too proud to admit I broke down. I had my moment of weakness in the dressing room, among the piles and piles of clothes, dresses, pants, shirts, all too small, too short, and too tight. The "not working" pile was now larger than the almost non-existent "kinda working pile. Before I knew it I was knee deep in tears and the fun movie montage of our experience was not happening.

When I think I had tried on everything possible outfit and separate in my size, it was time to move on to the next store. Frustrated and feeling overwhelmed by the possibility that this photo shoot would be much less than perfect, I ventured to the next store with our stylist. Leah came along for support, she of course being nothing over 5 feet and absolutely adorable, had found her first outfit to work out for her. Everyone was patient with me, and while I'm sure I hid things perfectly, I doubt most of them even noticed :)

The second shop was a find for me. The whole time my perfect fitting outfit awaited me on the hangers of this particular store. It fit like a glove and soon enough the smile was back on my face and I anxiously awaited the hair portion of my makeover. As I am constantly changing my hair, this is one area that did not scare me. Until I found out that I didn't get a say in cut, color, or ANYTHING!

I was in good hands, and in the end realized that hair grows back...in the end, I wish that weren't the case. I love the cut and want it to stay forever!

The rest is a blur, mimosas in the bathroom, flashes going on off in every direction and I have to admit, I felt like royalty. While I still feel absolutely gigantic next to the tiny little 5 foot nothing Leah, I'm pleased with the pictures. This is another area difficult for me. I'm used to being behind the camera, making decisions on lighting, posing, and anything else that comes along. I don't like being photographed, and as much as I try to convince all of the gorgeous women I photograph, that EVERYONE is beautiful ( I do truly believe this) There is something that happens in my head where I, Tambi Lane, am the exception to this rule.

What I did learn that day, is I'm loved. I had a great friend of mine Kimberly Teichrow taking the pictures, she of course wants me to look my best and will do her job to make sure I do. To not be able to throw out "the bad one's" was hard, to let someone else choose my photo was excruciatingly painful. But in the end...I look great.

I don't' regret a minute of the experience. Not even the part in the dressing room where I wanted to crawl out the back door and straight to the gym in hopes that 10 minutes on the treadmill would take care of those few extra pounds I've been stashing away.

Everyone wants to feel like a princess and we should all have our five minutes of fame. I got to have mine documented on video and in print for the people of Bend to stare at for the next two months. Thank you so much to everyone who made this possible. In the end, I actually did feel pretty on the inside...and out.

Thanks to my girl, for loving me and wanting me to be happy. I guess maybe I am doing something right with her.

getting my color done.

One of the MANY "afters"

And the final product that will be in various locations ALL over town....

What would the world do with out sisters...{personal}

When I was young I always wanted sisters. I was the only girl in my family of three children, and as many teen girls anyways feel, NO ONE UNDERSTOOD ME!

I wished I had someone to tell secrets too, someone to get fashion advice from, or someone to tell me all the secrets I needed to know to have a "normal" youth, when it came to boys. This unfortunately is something I was not blessed with.

At my next stage of life I wished for girls, baby girls, two in fact. They were going to be best friends who got along ridiculously well, tell each other everything and look as sweet as ever in their matching outfits.

What on earth was I thinking...I did get the two girls, but best friends is not what I have. They are complete opposites. Both unique and fun in their own ways. Through what used to be the source of constant heart break for me, something at one point in my life, I wasn't sure I would actually live through, I inherited two "other" girls.

Taylors father graced with world with a "few" children. Taylor being the oldest, she also has two younger sisters, and now a brother, from her father.

In the beginning, it was hard. There were two other girls with his same eyes, and in your face similarities to my baby. I could look into their tiny faces as see more of "him" in them then I could see in my own daughter. (Now this is a blessing, I will admit, that she resembles me more than him)

I will tell you that it was a tough year. What I came to realize is that these same tiny faces, that resembled "him" didn't ask to be here, they didn't ask to be put in the middle of a mess, and what's "normal" these days anyway?

So, my oldest daughter now has three sisters, two of which don't live with us, and a brother she's never met, but technically, these three children are as much a part of her as Kaci, and should not be treated any less.

We are not perfect about the visits, but try often to see them. They are two of the sweetest kids you'll meet, and they both absolutely, undoubtedly love their sister.

I received a call a few weeks ago from Breyanna, the older of the two. She's six, missing most of her teeth, and in the sweetest heartbreaking voice says this...

"Um, Tambi....I miss my sister, and I have the calendar in front of me with a few dates picked out. I'm wandering if you can find time to come see me in the next month or two?"

What kind of a S*&%$ would I be if I didn't pick the soonest date, rearrange a few plans and go see these two??

We spent a little over 24 hours with the girls, and while it doesn't seem like a lot, it was a jam packed 24 hours. Breyanna asked for something for when she misses her sister. What better than a video, where those far away seem closer than they are, and at times if you close you eyes real tight, it might even feel like they are right there. That a hug can happen at any minute and you can literally hear that giggly little laugh.

Video

So, after 5 years of loving two little beings, and having those tiny little things crawl up on my lap and snuggle themselves to sleep, all of the hurt just melts away. It doesn't matter anymore that I didn't end up with the "normal" family I thought I needed. All that matters is letting a bunch of silly, energetic, crazy girls; some with the same feet, or the same color eyes, or the same silly laughs be sisters, no matter what. To love each other and know that it's OK.

My hope is that one day, when they are older and close, despite the distance that they grew up from each other, that the secrets will be told, the fashion advice will be given and that Taylor will feel some connection to her other half. While it's a joy to be a part of their lives, and let them into ours, 24 hours is sometimes enough for me to remember that possibly I'm out of practice. More than possibly, I AM out of practice. The car seats and multiple trips to the bathroom, the constant hunger and naps that need to happen. I'm used to my flighty lifestyle where I can, at the drop of a hat, do what I want, when I want, where I want, and how I want.

But for 24 hours, or maybe a week, we'll give all of that up for a big ol' Breyanna/ Zoe hug!

Little Miss Popluarity {portraits}

Ever since Kaci got her hair died you'd think he had become a star. There was a rush of girls the flew into her homeroom class Monday morning to see what all the fuss was about, and accusations like "Your only playing with her now cause she has cool hair" My little fashion-ista almost started a riot in the halls with her perfectly quaff hair and bright shade of red.

I don't think she knew what to do with all of the attention, as she is not your typical attention hog. She leaves that duty to her unbelievably, in your face, theatrical sister. I told her to enjoy it and just remember who your friends are. She needed the boost...lately she's had a rough time.

Kaci doesn't make friends easily. She's a tom boy, but now at an age that if you play with a boy you must want to marry him. The girls either think she's weird, for her "unique" fashion trends, or she doesn't want to hang out with them for the drama and the constant chatter about "who likes who"

I love it that at 10 she has her head on straight and possibly we won't have the same issues as with Taylor. Taylor's whole life revolves around who she wants to date, who wants to date her, or who her friends like. It's exhausting.

In second grade a new family moved into the school. This school is unlike others in that you had to get in on lottery and hardly EVER does one of the "golden spots" open up in any grade other than kindergarten. Once your in, your in, and families rarely leave.

The family had a boy and girl, both in my kids classes. Every year there seems to be one particular child that your child has tough time with. Well, unfortunately for Kaci this family, or rather, this families sweet girl was it for her. I always tell her to give people a chance, they might surprise you when you get to know them. As I mentioned before...she's a stubborn child and this was not what she wanted to hear.

Over the next few years Kaci and Vanessa stayed away form each other. The small complaints, of " I just think she doesn't like me" or "She's a girly-girl Mom" started to become fewer and I started to notice that they two girls were finding some similarities this past year.

Both avid crafters, they worked on several projects together and Kaci started to discover that Vanessa was either not the girly-girl she had previously thought, or maybe V was just coming into her own. Whatever is what....they have found each other.

Kaci came home from school the other day, talking about Vanessa. They've spent allot of time together over the last few months with trips to the library after school and had one play date last week.

Now, what I'm about to tell you has to be kept in complete secrecy. but it's just too cute not to share. Kaci says she has a new best friend! Her and Vanessa talked and discovered neither of them has ever had a best friend, so, I think it was Vanessa, asked if they could be best friends. They have allot in common, crafting, an older sibling, silly, sweet, creative, being raised by single mothers, etc.

I had the pleasure of spending the entire day with them yesterday. It was so fun for me to see her connect with another person that way. They tease each other and no one gets hurt, they are both sarcastic at the right times, and their fashion statements are very similar. I hope that Kaci and Vanessa find themselves to be long time friends, they'll be good for each other. Plus I like her mom, so that's a benefit.

After Kaci came to the realization that unlike a few of the other girls in her class, that Vanessa actually played with her pre- makeover, the two girls wanted to do a "friend" photo shoot together. They had the best time yesterday picking out crazy outfits and getting ready. Vanessa loved it. She's a ham for the camera, and was so gracious to me for doing it. She kept saying how much fun she had, and I love to hear that in a 10 year old!

Her's a few from the day...look at these two, they are just too cute!

Vanessa's hair pieces are "fake" but she sure does look good...Kerry???

Love, Love, Love this one! Look at that face!

I love this one too....

Ps...the glasses, well those are fake too. But they wanted to match...isn't that cute!

Amy Wenzel + I Heart Faces= Awesome Opportinites

Every year around new years I think of things that I want to change. Things I want to do different..you know...the typical "new years resolutions" This year was no different. I did not choose the gym, I chose, for me, a more attainable, less frustrating approach.

1) Wear earrings. The dangle-y kind.

I have 5 holes in my ears, I wear small, unnoticeable hoops everyday. They are silver, they go with everything. I never take them out, and most days I forget they are there.

2) Enter everything.

I've never been one to win much. I think mostly I have bad luck, although now this seems to be changing. I figure the odds have to change if I enter everything that inspires me.

This brings us to my post. I have found yet another contest. This time it is for a seat at a workshop, by an amazing photographer Amy Wenzel, and I Heart Faces. Most of these contests out there, or scholarship opportunities want us to dig deep and tell our story. So this is what I must do. Tell my story. Some of you may have heard it, some may think you know it, but this is it, in 600 words or less, this is how I found my passion, and why I love to do what I know I am meant to do.

It was 2002; I was a mother of two small girls. I closed the door on one chapter of my life, wandering what would happen in the weeks to come. I finally made the choice to leave a bad marriage and start a life for my girls.

In high school, I took a photography class. My teacher thought I had "potential" and encouraged me any way he could. I loved being in the darkroom, loosing myself in my photos.

I moved back to Oregon, after my divorce, I had stayed home for many years. At 27, I literally had no skills. My mother knew a photographer who said he'd meet with me. I scrambled to put anything that looked good into some kind of presentation and met with him at his studio.

I'm sure he met with me to humor my mother, but was pleased with what he saw, especially knowing that other than a High School class, I was becoming a self taught photographer.

Over the years I have worked along side many talented and encouraging photographers. I read books, and learned what I could. I ventured the daunting task of studio lighting, with help of a great friend, and decided one day...I WILL be a photographer.

On the advice of a local woman, I made business cards and put a website together. Work was slow, in the beginning and many days I was discouraged thinking this "dream" of mine would never become reality. How many single mothers, barely making it, working full time one day just decide they WILL be a photographer and actually have that happen?

I had to change my thinking. This was not the attitude of a professional, and I was determined to make this happen.

The decision to go full time professional was forced. I was laid off from my job, and the market was scarce.

The strange part is, the whole time; I know someone/thing has been watching out for us. There has not been one day that we aren't blessed by our opportunities.

I have a long way to go, but being able to provide for my family, doing what I love, and in turn blessing other people with meaningful images, has been the best the thing that has happened to us.

I am able to live the life I dreamed of, and only hope that through the years I can continue to do so.

Recently, I stumbled upon Boudoir photography, which has been amazing to watch what has happened through my lens. I've seen women find themselves again, remember they are beautiful, and watch women that never really thought they had any greatness, find it in an hour session. In the beginning of my Boudoir adventure, I was foolish to think I was actually the one making the difference. . What happened, is that these women have actually helped me. They took this self-conscious girl, the one that still thinks of herself as the quiet girl that no one notices, and let me show the world why I'm here. As I strive to convince all of these women they are beautiful, they actually are teaching me.

Everyone I am able to photograph changes me bits at a time. I see myself in them, I realize they are me. We teach each other that feminine beauty is more than skin deep, and everyone has something to give. No matter what size, shape, color, or marital status, each woman is unique, yet we always find a common denominator. We all need to be reminded why we are here...

I love seeing how photography has changed my life, and that of my girls, as well as all of the special families I come in contact with. I know I am blessed, lucky if you will, and I want to continue to live out my dream. I enjoy seeing the world with different eyes now, and instead of wishing I had done things different, I now know I did them just the way they were meant to be. Congratulations to whom ever this opportunity goes to, may you find your passion if you have not already done so, and continue to bless your selves and those around you with your perception of the world.

March Newsletter

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Miss Kaci....Rockstar

Kaci is a stubborn child. She doesn't like to do much, unless highly motivated, by candy, money or hair die.

We've been having some major problems getting her motivated to get dressed, put on clothes, you know...all the necessities of getting one's self ready for a day of school. There is alot of wandering around the house, looking for a shirt to literally jump out at her, or magically turn into something.

I finally found the magic potion. Who would have thought letting your ten year old color her hair would make life so much easier.

My mom never would have let me do such a crazy thing at 10, but this mom...well, I love it that she has personality and if Ronald McDonald red is what she wants, then by all means....

I took Kaci down last night to get a cut and a few colored pieces in. She looks so cute! I was more than pleased with the way it looks. I must say I was a bit hesitant on the bangs, but this girl can rock it! She loves the hair and has even promised to keep it combed...WOW!

I had to celebrate such a joyous day, the day Miss Kaci, my tomboy, my skater chick, my non-dress wearing kid, wanted to put on a bright red skirt and totally rock the new hair!